Many of you have probably read previous posts about my friend Jill. Well, her husband was involved in an accident that left him with 3rd degree burns on 40% of his body and paralyzed from the waist down. She has been communicating through a caringbridge site. I read the updates daily and today's was about her surrendering to God. She talked about how everything seems so "out of her control" and she has no choice but to surrender.
That really hit me. I am a pretty controlling person. Not in a bad way, just very organized and in control. :) All that know me well know that I do not function well in chaos. If I feel out of control, I find some way to get control.
I just kept thinking to myself, "What would I do if I was her? I know I have such strong faith, but would I be able to count on just that?" I have not YET been in a situation where I have felt so out of control that God is all I had to count on. Have you?
My friend, Cari Mansfield, and I were talking about just this - How God grows us through challenging times. Tyson, you and I have talked about this and how we're nervous about what those situations may be when they do come our way. Whatever it is, all I can say is that I am so glad that I have given my life to God and I do have that as my strength for the rest of my life! I seriously don't know what I would do without it! Living a life of faith is easy in a day to day manner when everything is going great. But what happens when your whole world comes crashing down. Will you curse the world and God or will you surrender and say, "Grow Me."
I trust that I will choose, "Grow Me!"
Not to get too deep on you, but Jill really made me think today.
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Thanks for inviting me in. I have missed the blog. Shane and I waited on both of our kids and it was very exciting. With Anna I really felt the whole pregnancy that I was having another boy. Then BAM!!!! It's a girl. Suprised does not begin to explain it. You will be glad you waited. YOU LOOK GREAT.
ReplyDeleteI have been going through the same thoughts lately. I have no idea what I would do if I was in Jill's shoes. On a brutally honest note, I think that I probably would "curse the world" first and go through that angry phase before I could just come weeping at Christ's feet and say, "Ok. Where do I go from here?" Great blog! Thanks for sharing!
ReplyDeleteI believe God gives each of us the strength we need to get through each test. We don't do it on our own because we can't. We weren't made to. Only through him ...
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