I am feeling guilty because I feel like I'm so snappy and short with the girls. I feel that I have all the patience in the world with Ian, and then I'm treating the girls like crap. A friend of mine told me that after she had her third baby, she cried to her husband, "I'm the worst Mom ever." That's how I'm beginning to feel. I am just trying to tell myself that this is a time of transisition. Things will settle down, and we'll get into a routine. He will begin to stabalize and get on more of a schedule with his feedings. It's so unpredictable now.
Everytime the girls turn around, I'm either nursing, changing, holding, kissing, loving, or cooing over little Baby Ian.
I think that nearly 2 weeks of broken sleep is beginning to take its toll on my nervous system.
I need some encouragement! :)
Oh Myah, I know what you are going through! Only 5 short months ago that was me. :) Just remember this too shall pass and before you know it Ian will be sleeping through the night and you will be nursing him less often. You are doing a wonderful job and I am always here if you need to talk.
ReplyDeleteOh friend, your girls love you so much. And they love Ian too. Things will get better a little every day, and soon 3 will seem like no big deal. Please let me know if I can help in any way until then!
ReplyDeleteMyah, you are most definitely NOT the worst mom in the world! I only hope I can be as good of a mom as you are when I have children. BUCK UP! You are a blessing to your girls and they love you unconditionally, just as you do them. "This too shall pass." I can't wait to see you in the next couple of weeks!
ReplyDeleteI know what you are going through. I went though that with just TWO kids! When I had Carson, all of a sudden Nathan seemed so much older (compared to the baby). I think I expected too much out of his behavior. I also had less patience because I was so tired. I enjoyed my alone time with Carson so I could shower him with love and not feel guilty that Nathan would get jealous. I wanted Nathan to know he was just as important as the baby, so it was hard to balance that. I learned that the evenings after Nathan went to bed were the best time to spend cuddling with Carson. That is probably why his bedtime wasn't until 10:00 pm until he was 9 months old!! It is a hard adjustment!! Since you have the two girls, you know that everything works itself out eventually. Just make sure to take turns with Josh to have special one-on-one or two-on-one time with the kids. I enjoyed the break when I would be alone with the baby, but then I would enjoy the excitement of having alone time with Nathan.
ReplyDeleteYou are a great mom, just try and remain calm, all stages and their pros and cons. Just remember how much you all love each other!
ReplyDeleteI can't imagine you snappy! I am guessing you feel it more inside of you than you show it to the girls. I don't know what it's like to have three, but you know that the first few weeks with a baby is transition time. Everyone is adjusting to the awesome blessing of Ian. Even wonderful changes have periods of adjustment. I am sure the girls love their extra time they get with grandmas and friends. Love you!
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You know that is not true! You are a wonderful mother. You just have one more blessing in your life. I don't know what it's like to have 3 kids but I do remember telling myself when Carson was tiny that I still need to remember that Gabby needs attention too. I felt like she was fighting for it sometimes. It helped when I gave her things to help me with like get a diaper or hand me a wipe. You are probably already doing this but just let them help and feel more involved, they will love it and hopefully you'll feel like things calm down more. You will get into a routine, it's just hard when you're sleep deprived!
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